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[07 Jun 2006|08:20pm] |
well i thought i was over the whole people drinking and smoking bothering me thing, but it hasnt. i thought after the whole getting my boyfriends to stop thing, then my friends starting up again, and people wanting me to do it.. i thought i was over the whole deal.. but i guess im not.. my loves.. the ones i love with all of my heart and would marry if they legally could, do it.. i dont say anything to them cause i love them more than my life.. but i do feel uncomfortable talking with them while they are under the influence or even while they arent and theyre just talking about it.. i dunno.. im not trying to change them, and I love them just how they are.. i just do wish they wouldnt do it.. for their own sakes.. i dont want them to have all the after effects that these products have.. i get on the phone with these people and i almost break down and cry, but i dont, cause i know i cant do that to them.. its their life.. its their choices.. i just want to let them know that i love them so much.. be careful guys..
M.A. R.P. C.L. <3
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[05 Jun 2006|09:27pm] |
so, while i was talking to my lovely layla.. i realized that I might actually have a horrible time at band camp. In my mind i was thinking of all my friends that are in the band that ill be with, and ill be getting an awesome tan.. the one thing ill probably freak out about and probably not have a good time about is the fact that JASON will be there.. Ive kept him so far from my mind, that I forgot he was going to be at band camp. :( aww this sucks! now i have to prepare myself for a possible emotional breakdown! gooosh! i have to get settled and just breathe.. *sigh!!!* ugh, ill be okay i hope.. i dunno... :\
<3Rp<3
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[05 Jun 2006|04:36pm] |
well, i got the job at bob evans, but im going to be a waitress cause there arent any hostess jobs open, but i cant start until i get my work permit in. Lets see, im giving up hope on one perticular person, for my own reasons, and i think my potential level for someone else is building to the extreme. This person is amazing. Hes so sweet and kind and generous and not to mention one of the greatest friends Ive ever had! He's always been there for me whenever i needed him. He's the greatest<333
Rp.<333
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[02 Jun 2006|07:52am] |
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lets see.. today, at 8:30 im driving with magnon for 3 hours. then i get to come home and be a bum for the rest of the night. anyone got any plans they would like to include me in? tomorrow's going to be interesting.. im driving with magnone again and i have my 2nd interview with Bob Evans. :) See, i need this job so i can get my licenes. I have to pay for my own insurance, let alone my own car, the insurance on that, and my own gas. Responsiblilites SUCK! but its okay.. "itll build strong character!" whateves.. well hey boo's imma go, Ill talk to you all later! -XOXO-
<3BWHEE!<3
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[01 Jun 2006|08:07pm] |
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*I love Mark <3*
Gamer2113: I'd rather spend the rest of my life with you than with a guy called Molly.
xCrestfallen143x: aww but molly's nice.
xCrestfallen143x: ive met him
xCrestfallen143x: we had an affair
Gamer2113: Hahahahaha
xCrestfallen143x: hes good in bed
xCrestfallen143x: :-)
Gamer2113: Well, the Molly I'm talking about has been in prison so long he no longer has an interest in women.
xCrestfallen143x: um.. thats why hes in prision hunnie
xCrestfallen143x: he raped me so hard, that he went gay.
Gamer2113: Hahahahhaahah
xCrestfallen143x: he thought that any other girl couldnt compare
Gamer2113: And now he's hooked up with Bubba.
xCrestfallen143x: so he went gay to see the other side
Gamer2113: I see.
Gamer2113: You're good if you can turn a guy gay with great sex.
xCrestfallen143x: baby, im GOD!
Gamer2113: No doubts there :-P
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Gamer2113: Omg....my new goal in life
Gamer2113: to get on National TV
Gamer2113: and talk about Fucking, Austria
Gamer2113: No fines can be given, because it's a town.
Gamer2113: I can be like "Yeah, I decided to goto Fucking, Austria. I went down and got a job at the Fucking Fire Department, hurt myself...went to the Fucking Hospital. Sat in the Fucking Emergency room 4 hours, then got one of those quality Fucking bandages."
Gamer2113: My life would be nearly complete.
Gamer2113: Everything else but you would be meaningless after that.
Gamer2113: God would that be the greatest show ever.
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Gamer2113: You know, you're really good on that whole making me happy thing.
^i love you <3^
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[31 May 2006|04:04pm] |
This is how much I <3 the Sullivan family:
MOM and DAD:
Heart me alot that theyd allow me to stay with them and their 3 boys for a week
MARK:
Loves me unconditionally. One of the bestest friends Ive ever had. The greatest person who has ever lived and I would seriously doge a bullet for. I love this kid!<3
AARON:
Respects me, and is one of the coolest kids i know...example:
Aaron: then dont get married! lol :-P
Me: haha, baby.. i gotta start lookin.. im not getting any younger here! :-P
Aaron: well i think ya found one and its a damn good one. ^__^ trust me i live with him :-)
LUKE:
One word: BUBBLES! Im going to kidnap this kid! FASHO! :)
<3 bwhee! i heart these people!
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[02 Mar 2006|08:16pm] |
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well i just got rid of my MySpace because of stupid people. People say im saying crap, but im not.. so to make everyones life a whole lot easier.. im just getting rid of it.. gosh.. whats the point of having one anyways.. im never online.. sigh, i hate this all.. and my life is not agreeing with me, so yea, its all downhill.. sigh well loves, i will probably get rid of this soon too, no one uses it anymore.. heh, yea, bye.
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Well, the computers at school got a new password for the omeresa thing, so i cant get on there anymore. im at hime right now, and dads only giving me a half hour.. darn it.. anyway, i thought i should let you know, me and jason are broken up, and im completely screwed with love.. so i guess im a failure.. im going to give you a quotable quote to end my session here today...
"Thou little knowest what a relief it is, after the torment of a seven years' cheat, to look into an eye that recognizes me for what I am! Had I one friend,--or were it my worst enemy!--to whom, when sickened with the praises of all other men, I could daily betake myself, and be known as the vilest of all sinners, methinks my soul might keep itself alive thereby. Even thus much of truth would save me! But now, it is all falsehood!--all emptiness!--all death!"
sadly, this is exactly how i feel.. sigh, well i hope you all are content with your lives, and can live with yourselves with whatever decisions you make.. God be with you all..
<3I love you CLD with all of my heart and soul, and even though you want nothing to do with me right now, I just want you to know that I will always be in love with you, and nothing will ever change that!
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weeeeeell its 8:35 in the morrrrrning! sigh and im in mr. georges claaaaaasroom! teeeheee im sooo not awake.. well lets see, we have a half a day today, and i was SUPPOSE to go hang with my lovely children (meggy jimmy and SMO!) BUUUUUUUT smo has to be a loser and have swim practice, so we arent doing it. sigh, so i might just throw around with michelle after she's done packing to go to her moms this weekend! sigh, well i dont know about anything anymore! seriously, i cant keep my head on my shoulders without it tipping a bit.. i cant keep going through life trying to push pass my limits one bit at a time.. im going to lose everything if i do.. sigh, well johsie isnt here, and im bored.. i have I Tech, then French 3 then AC Choir, then Fitness.. all crappy do nothing classes, and my joshie isnt here.. sigh, well i guess ill have to deal.. well imma go so ill talk to you all probvably monday..
This, my friend, is TRUE LOVE...<3
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oh my goodness gracious! i hate every decision i make now.. i hate myself and i hate everything around me! i hate what i do to people and the way that people take it. i wish that i could just live my life the way i want to and no one be mad at me.. sigh, i can never get what i want! DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS! never just let it be. ALWAYS PICKING! THIS OR THAT! never how i want it.. L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E! haha i hate ashely simpson.. that was an ADD moment! sigh, but back to the topic.. i hate of it.. but tomorrow will make everything better!! because i get to go to Robinson with mergy jummiy and my "date" SMO!!!!!! :D!!!!! SHAKE THAT LAFFY TAFFY!! woe! i heart speeeedos and joshie for coming last night with me the swim meet and seeing why i <3 speedos! lol sigh im sitting in I tech with joshie listening to his MP3 playa!! oh oh! sigh i am in deep doodoo with everyone!! sigh! tuesday night with cody was G-R-E-A-T har har! anywho.. well now you kno wwhy im in doo doo lol well all, my adoringly smo is next to me and i think i shall rape him until he cant breathe.. so i will talk to you lata homiez! booya! <3
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I LOVE JOSHUA ALLEN NICHOLS MORE THAN ANYONE IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD! teehee AND I ALSO LOVE FRANKIE LARUES SPEEEEEDO! bwhee! sigh, im ghetto.. goodbye! <3
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hello there loves..
well today is the last day of school before we go onto break.. and well.. im crampin! lol but yea.. i got gifts from jamie, jason, and nikki.. thats sad because i got gifts for everyone else.. gosh i dont know why i am such a freakin nice person.. i give but never recieve.. ehh i guess thats a good thing.. but once and a while it would be nice to recieve.. sigh.. anyways.. its been crazy.. life that is.. i have had crazy emotions and such and yea, their not good.. i need to figure out exactly what i want.. well i know who i want.. but i need to figure out everything leading up to it.. if you dont understand it, its okay because i dont care.. lol sigh well smo is now how you say.. on top of me.. haha nahh.. just his arms over my shoulder.. love him to death :) teehee.. anywhos.. im pregnant!! no no im playing.. lol wow im hyper.. and oww am i crampin! i got our steuben pics.. as soon as i get on the comp at home.. ill upload the pics!! teehee i <3 them.. well dearies.. keep in touch.. stay alive.. and um.. i shall talk to you later...
HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS..AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!<3
<3
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[26 Nov 2005|09:31pm] |
hey everyone.. wow, its been a very long time since ive posted in this thing.. lets see im at the library.. and ive been here for a long time and josh siarra has just walked in, yay!! well my day is alrady been down the drains.. i got yelled at by my mom multiple times for crap that i havent done.. like we were at the bank.. and she told me i was allowed to drive... yes people i have my permit.. had it since Oct 22! bwhee! so anywho.. she told me i could drive, and blah blah i didnt get oou of the car right when she went into the bank, and flipped out and told me i couldnt drive here.. ahh whatever.. no worries.. anyways.. well im dating jason now.. not to many people are thrilled to hear it.. considering both of our pasts.. eeps.. well we are doing pretty good so far.. well dearies.. i have to go.. i will talk to you all later.. please leave me messages so i dont feel unloved.. bwhee <3 byebye
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Can't you see what you do to me baby,
You make me crazy, you make me act like a maniac
I'm like a lunatic, you make me sick
You're truly the only one who can do this to me
You just make me get so crazy
I go schizo, I get so insane I just go schizophrenic
One minute I wanna slit your throat the next I wanna sex
You make me crazy
The way we act like two maniacs in the sack
We fuck like two jack rabbits and maybe that's a bad habit
Cause the next day we right back at it
In the same exact pattern
What the fuck is the matter with us
We can't figure out if it's lust
Or if it's love which that is attractin us to eachother
^my life at this point in time^
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[24 Sep 2005|01:29pm] |
me and cody are, again, broken up.. sigh.. well i guess that shooting star that i wished on was heading to the sky.. but only to the ground..
cody- i love you. im not going to ask you to take me back. i did screw up greatly, and im truely sorry for that. i do still want us to remain friends though. if we didnt, then i dont know what id do. you are still one of my bestest friends and you will always remain that way.. i still want to be able to come to you and talk to you about things, and visa versa. please do not be too upset with me, i guess our dreams werent meant to come true.. ill love you forever and always.. your friend sami..
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I confess, I messed up
dropping "I'm sorry" like you're still around
And I know you dressed up
"hey kid you'll never live this down"
And you're just the girl all the boys want to dance with
And I'm just the boy who's had too many chances
I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming
She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"
I don't blame you for being you
But you can't blame me for hating it
So say, what are you waiting for?
Kiss her, kiss her
I set my clocks early 'cause I know I'm always late
Write me off, give up on me
Cause darling, what did you expect
I'm just off a lost cause
a long shot, don't even take this bet
You can make all the moves, you can aim all the spotlights
Get all the sighs and the moans just right
I'm sleeping on your folk's porch again, dreaming
She said, she said, she said, "Why don't you just drop dead?"
oi! :( geezie, "and we're all downhill from here..."
colaboration of two songs of two completely different artists.. geezie im cool...
nikki dont hate me.. please.. i screwed up.. and i plan to fix this.. i love you..<3
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[04 Sep 2005|10:42pm] |
hmm well im at nikki's and wwe're happy to be together right now. cody just visited, and i was happy, but he left, and now im sad, he said he's coming later, but i highly doubt it, joe probably wont let him come back, and cody prona;y desnt want to sigh. carlos mencia<3 hmm even though nikki doesnt have a boyfriend, im so happy that she can talk to a VERY HOTT guy.. *jealous* and stay true and calm about it.. eeps.. well um imma go so she can talk to Greg about Josh hehe muah xoxo byebye
<3I love you more than anything in the world, love your babygirl<3
and i <3 my nikki xoxo
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[04 Sep 2005|12:52am] |
well me and cody are going out agian.. yay! :D um yea, we went to the football game together yesterday, and toda we went to the RBI show together! im so happy you guys! this is what ive been waiting for the past 2 months! aww i aint messin up! so people.. stay away from me unless you wanna get b-slapped by my cock! :P >:O hehe, dude at the show today, i saw craig dylewski! abby's older bro! i didnt know it was him until i saw his mom.. but i knew id seen him before.. he is so darn pretty (im saying he's pretty.. im not saying like "oh i wanna suck him off .. gosh losers..) hmm the bands there rocked \m/ dont ask what the names were cause i wasnt paying attention lol.. well im going to bed.. peace out homez!
<3...I love you more than anything in the world, love your babygirl...<3
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[30 Aug 2005|09:28pm] |
well im not happy anymore, im confused. so imma lay it staright out here:
Mike: I can't date you. I was answering on impulse. I do have a bit of a crush on you, but I dont know if it's enough to actually date you. I'm really sorry and I hope you understand. <3
Cody: We need to seriously talk! You flipped out on me Sunday, and its Tuesday, and you are asking me out. Are you only doing this because Kisner asked me out?? It seems like it, but Im not going to try not to believe it. I heard that when you and Izzy we tlaking in class she said that she liked you, then you said you liked her, then you said you might ask her out. I'm not giving you an answer until I can figure this out. Sorry. <3
Deterz: I dont know if you can read this or not, but if you can, then here is what I have to say. You have treated me so great since the forst time I talked to you, except for that one time.. ish! well, I know that you have to get your act together, and i know this happens to you everytime that we talk, but i do hope we can get closer.. you seem like really really cool.. Sept 20th- can't wait! You need to call me! <3
I hate what I am going throguh right now and I dont need people leaving stupid comments about it. Only if you have supportive comments to make, then make them, if not, keep them to yourslef, or talk about me behind me back, but i guess i dont have to tell you to do that, you do it as is..
<3Sami
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